COME SUNDOWN by Nora Roberts, (c) 2017. This is the first Nora Roberts book I’ve ever read I think… I guess this means I’ll be reading more… This is the story of the Longbow family who run a working ranch and resort in Montana. Everyone seems to work at the ranch, the grandma’s and all their offspring. Bodine Logbow is the young woman in charge. But not far away Bodine’s aunt Alice is being held captive by an insane man for the last 25 years, who beats and rapes her quite often, he calls her Esther and she calls him Sir. She’s birthed him children and he kept the boy but I wonder what happens to the infant girls? He’s giving them away or killing them I suppose. Well one day Alice gets free, and ends up by the side of the road not far from the ranch but she’s quite insane by now. So she’s taken to the hospital where her identity is found. Now the family is dealing with her health and mental problems. It proves to be in interesting story as Alice’s sister Maureen and her three grown children run the ranch and fall in love.
Since last December, I’ve offended many people, mainly my aunt, who more or less stopped talking to me about 30 years ago. In doing that I also offended her son, his wife and grandchildren since they don’t talk to me in Facebook.. I do feel bad about that, but I had 30 years of unanswered questions. I was in an emotional mood that day, December riles me up, it has for years. I apologized as soon as I did and since it came out of the blue (to them), I probably sounded crazy.
Then a few weeks ago I got billed for clock I didn’t expect from volunteers at the historical building which I clean once a week, which included my aunt I mentioned, even though I gave them a replacement which wasn’t good enough. So I gave them their $5.00 and wrote a sarcastic note to go with with it. Friday I apologized again in a note, I’m not sure what they thought of that. I said:
“I’m sorry about the clock fiasco, I hope no one holds a grudge. Can we move on from here and just be happy?”
and I signed my name and drew a cartoon of my face.
Anyway they might all think I’m CRAZY now and just avoid me. Maybe I did act out of character. Like I said I need a physical. My problem is I say things impulsively without any thought of consequence. I just blurt things out! I offend people all the time, just usually my family not other folks. I need to curb my enthusiasm for speaking what I’m FEELING…
I had a talk with my much older cousin and we decided I have to stop writing notes and letters. I KNEW that before I talked to her, I just got it confirmed! She is a Sagittarius similar to me, she knows. She said say what you feel but don’t put it in writing. I am a coward and hate confrontations so I write my damned notes! I just put my foot in my mouth every-time I turn around. I seem irritable lately and don’t know why.
I wish I hadn’t gotten so angry that day, why didn’t I shrug it off like I used to do? I know it’s best to live in the PRESENT Moment and to leave the past behind. I think I need a physical I haven’t been my easy going self lately.